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We say it silently…

Sometimes it’s the bad words we say due to anger and sadness  silently,  it has another meaning… We don’t say it out loud … We are being honest with ourselves, but not to those who are hearing us, who are hurting us…. We just show them we don’t care, though silently we do care!

“I hate you” why would we say those words to the person we love the most? Is it to show our madness? Or to show how much we’ve been hurt from that person?  
“I HATE YOU”, but silently it’s: “I LOVE YOU”!  We say the word HATE to shake the person, to force him/her to look towards us and see the pain he/she’s causing …. He/she, when hearing this word will definitely look towards you with a shocked look, even if to only ask why?.

Sometimes, saying “just leave me alone” has another meaning, we try to push people away from us to protect ourselves but silently we say “ don’t listen to me, don’t leave”. We show our strength, to hide our weakness…. We think we are doing just great in front of them but silently we are suffering…

We show them how much we are happy just to hide the sadness, the deep sadness inside…. We laugh loudly though silently we  cry!!

The unspoken words are so true, yet we feel as if we let it out , part of us will leave when no one listens to it…  we keep it , never feel safe to say it, saying them silently makes us feel apart from people….The reality that lies in the silent words , show how much we are honest with ourselves but not with others……

Sometimes, it takes us years to feel secure but in return it takes them one second to make us feel insecure… by one action they make, by one word they say out loud….  How we wish they say it silently instead….

Closing our eyes to never see them, but our heart is always open to protect them with our love …. Pushing them away trying to tell them we are wounded, asking them to stay away, but silently our arms are wide open to hold them when they need us……

The truth remains silent, the honest words we need to say…sometimes we are afraid to say them… To keep it meaningful , to keep on reminding ourselves that we have the ability to treat ourselves nice if they don’t…  When we say words, we kill it, it lost in the ignorance of others  that cause us our pain…. We keep it silently we keep it alive inside of our mind and our heart never set it free to get broken…..

Sometimes, by saying words loudly, they can heal us and ease our pain, especially if they caused that pain…  when we want to get their attention, we are forced to say the most painful words which are  “I HATE YOU”.. But  silently words that mean “I LOVE YOU” kills us at the same moment!

Jinan

 

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April 18, 2010 - Posted by | Canada, emotions, English, forgiveness, friendship, Hate, Life, Love, Memories, others, Past, Peace, silence, Speak, Thought, Trust, Words

10 Comments »

  1. i really like this one jinan..so far it’s my favorite
    and it’s very true as well. sometimes we hide our true feelings to avoid the pain. great work, keep writing =) xoxo

    Comment by Nour Rachid | April 22, 2010 | Reply

  2. Beautifully written Jinan. Once again I must ask, are you really 110 years old? I believe you have an amazing capacity for clarifying thoughts and feelings that others sometimes are unable to articulate, even to themselves. Keep up the good work. Thank you Dear One.

    Comment by Chandra Teslar | April 18, 2010 | Reply

  3. Lovely writing Jinan, well done.
    Even though it is such a sad subject

    Comment by recision | April 18, 2010 | Reply

  4. Jinan, once more your writing is beautiful and shows your courage and strength because often what we write about for others, is that which is most true for ourselves.
    In the contracts we make with people to experience the lives we will live here, if we indeed play a part in each others’ re-awakening, then that is an honour.
    You are so full of love and your heart is one of pure beauty. How rich and blessed we all are to know you and learn from you.
    Love and Blessings precious soul ~
    Pemma xXx

    Comment by Pemma | April 18, 2010 | Reply

  5. Thank you Gill for sharing this post.. There are no words to describe Jinan writings!!! Great reality in your articles Jinan! Absolutely true!!

    Comment by Selven | April 18, 2010 | Reply

  6. Jinan, I love this, it really does touch my heart for so many reasons…Thank you for finding the words that I feel but do not speak….Much Love as always Gill xXx

    Comment by Gill | April 18, 2010 | Reply

  7. Great work as usual!

    Comment by Sousou | April 18, 2010 | Reply

  8. That’s beautiful Jinan, words can make or break a heart, a life, a relationship.
    There is a lot of hidden pain in your post Jinan… I hope you are not hurting..
    Thank you Gill for bringing this post to our attention.
    God bless
    Gul

    Comment by Goolcher | April 18, 2010 | Reply

    • Gul 🙂 No i’m fine, I’m not hurt it’s about what ppl in general feel sometimes..
      thank you for your lovely comment Gul!!

      Comment by Jinan Zeidan | April 18, 2010 | Reply

  9. Jinan ~ This is beautiful writing. TOTALLY AWESOME! Thanks for sharing…

    Comment by Patty | April 18, 2010 | Reply


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